Oh god did i missed April? Izzany birthday was on 24th while Nissa was 28th, so Happy Birthday wishes. Izzany, how i miss you brother.
damn... Well was busy with work and life but i thought i take this time to write a bit before i fly off.
Was at home and watched "Must Have Dogs" on Astro, an old love romantic movie but it was nice, i do take watching movies seriously, as times we learn some lessons in it. For me it was a sweet movie of how one recovers and bounce back to the relationship thing after being hurt or alone for a long time, the cliche of the movie was how the girl actually came back and swam for the man (you have to watch it to know it)
This i guess is the ethos of matters, How important is someone in our life? is it true that we under value those that is most valuable and chase those that are not? what about chasing dreams that aren't real while letting go the miracle that is in front of us? I don't have the answers for all that, for me i take my cue from God and Fate. Being slapped by a girl kinda work me.. go figure. Well times i wish life are movies, )have my red cape and underwear on standby*superman*) I wish it would be easier if we could just tell people what it is that is in our mind, assure them to rest their fears and that we are scared too, to heal and give another chance, for it would be so nice to be valued, to know that you are important in the grand scheme of things and not merely an object of money, work or ideas, being a leader is a lonely place. Talking about that, there was another movie called "For Love or Money"(although i did write about it once) this guy gave up his dream investor to be with the girl as the girl was going away, what would it take for us to realize the value of others? to take the next step in a growing relationship and making the jump. Being at my age (28 always hahaha) gives me the glimpse and worry that others don't see, the skill to look forward and avoid potholes (still hitting them) is hard to acquire. I guess life is just like that. Since 2009, i have never taken a proper time off, only recently with trips to Lgk as a tourist, genting and bukit tinggi, non family, just me and her. Its not that i could have not done it before but was never motivated to do it. And tomorrow, i take a step by taking a first personal vacation in over 8 years. Scared? you betcha but you never know until you try and even if its not mutual but i feel in my gut that its worth taking the step.
For in relationship, i guess it is always in stages, in a world of freedom and liberal, the first night is the hardest and surviving it is like the first step. Then comes the adjustment period where you try hide your shortcomings and highlight your good ones and then comes the natural stage, where you explore and learn more. I had given up long time ago, with girls now days on a money and status stage, so on this journey, i just let it happen, no planning no expectations and surprisingly everything clicks into place, a tad fast but 60 days flies by so fast, Why must be scared of the future? For future is what we shape it to be. Sacrifices and effort become easy if we do it from the heart and now with bad intentions. I trust in God and his will is my path, for everything happens for a reason and it is up to us to make full of the chances and blessing that He has given us.
As time draws on us, we must always value for what we have and treasure it, like a plant, furnish it with water (love), build a strong foundation(trust) and give it sunlight to grow (responsibility) for if not it will stray or worse die. Many times i had wished those in the past would have seen this, maybe i didnt try hard enough but for this time, i am going the extra mile to see if what i feel is real or merely a mirage. Pray for me.
On that note, Please don't stop praying for MH370, do not forget them, pray for them in our daily prayers. For collectively we are far stronger than being alone.
Peace.
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