Trying times

As the week draws near to its end, this has been a truly testing time for us. Adik is already going to school but everytime i send him he cries and clings to me, it kills me everytime i had to walk away and leave him there but its for his own good. Yesterday, they started toilet training him and we have to follow at home. Being a single father makes things harder as i have to juggle with the growing company and business. The kids suffer the most and it bring tears in my eyes everytime i watch them sleep as i know they do not have the touch of a mother but accepted the fact that their mother is far away. How long before i lose the support of my own mother in bringing the kids up is like a race in time.



Once there was someone i could share this with but she has long gone and not even looked backed even when i needed to hear her voice. I accept this and move on but always wishing and hoping. Forthe young, it is easy to walk away for they do not yet have the scars of lost as i have which makes me appriciete those around me, to accept failures of others and forgive thier mistakes and guiding them is a hard thing but to the young, its easy as love will abundnce so why look back?
Help comes in many forms as the same of sacrifice, it is not only in money but of time and emotional as well, not everything is about money but if everything is judged on money than we are nothing more than an atm machine. The calls at night, the cuddle as we sleep, the warm kisses and passionate nights, the word of comfort and most importantly knowing that someone is there for you, accepts you for all ur flaws and problems is what live is all about. Not how much money or paying the bills, granted that is thebresponsibility of the man but a man needs his comfort and love, this makes him a better fighter, knowing that makes the trouble lesser. If only it was as easy to explain this but its not.

Some are distracted by the past that they forget about tomorrow, losing the chance of happiness and joy that god has given them, they rather mopp and wallow in past pain, torturing themselves rather than taking the joy and the journey shown to them. Sacrifice is not only money but time and emotions as well, we want to be loved, pampered amd cared for, to be accepted for our flaws and short coming but would we do the same for the other? I beleive that if true love and the niat is sincere that it would come naturally.



As i look at the coming week, i too often wonder if i have enough strgenth to face the coming dawn, the risk of work, heart and love, the possibility of being hurt, rejected or worse to be used but when i look at my kids, i get my stregenth from them and i know that i owe it to them to try and in the end, trying is the first step towards success as god help those who help themselves, so never lose ur faith, in life, in work and esp in love. If its meant to be then it will return. Give it a chance for we never know what tomorrow brings.
Peace.

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