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| Forging ahead |
Its December, in a few weeks we will be saying goodbye to 2011. Oh 2011, What a wonderful time have you given us. The ups and downs, the thrills and joys, the celebrations and the tragedy that had us athe edge of our seats. In this last 11 months, i would not be able to say what the others had learn. Did we learn from our mistakes? did we grow? did we hurt people? did we forgive them? alas so many questions...
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| Yanti's Wedding |
For me the biggest thing i had learn or witness was the human factor. For in the Quran, it was said that the devil asked what was so great about human, for they are only built with earth. I would say after this 11 months, although for many i have written in the past but yet, it never fails me, the human nature.
LOVE vs HATE
The most over used word in the world, love is but something that is usually misunderstood and wrongly represented. In this past 11 months, i have seen how love can turn to hate and vice versa. It just baffles me that we can love the sweetness of others but we hate the sourness of a person. Why is this so? as we try to be perfect human and we search for the perfect love, we always forget that it never been recorded in existent but yet as humans we never fail to try, to dream, to hope and lastly to pray. For a humble person like me, i am amazed that people can profess and write about love, lost and forgiveness but yet they never do practice it when they are faced with it. Do we really know what we are doing? would we ever grow if we never allow us to progress. For some love is a hard thing but as often i have said, love is like a plant that needs sunlight, water and nourishment to grow but also love is similar to other things in life, we as we nuture it to grow may forget to water it or let it have some sunlight, thus the love starts to get weak and will usually die. So, what is love vs hate? it is for more easier to hate people rather than love them. For love demands sacrifices and understanding.
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| In Shadow I find peace |
For your truly, the search for eternal love is by far the greatest adventure i can partake and it is the words of my father that reminds me that at times it is the journey that is more satisfying the destination. Faces with a breakup in the past, a cold wall that blocks all my attempts it was a small hole in the my own soul that opened a small ray of hope to my soul. it warms the body and fuels the heart while reviving the soul. But nothing in life is ever easy, my dad always said that we must fight for what we want then only we will truly value what we have. To some let me tell you a secret, NO angel will come down and take your hand to your "jodoh" and say this is the one for you, then you gaze into each other eyes, fall in love and live happily ever after, no guys, that only happens in the movies. For true love is hard to find, i may have stumbled on to it but was never lucky enough to make it stay and i learn from every venture of it, even now with this new journey that is calling me to take this path, the soul and heart shivers... the hope and dreams rejoice.. for one must never forget, with joy there is always pain and with happiness there will be sadness but this are but small price to pay. To have that smile on me, the look of her eyes and to know that someone somewhere cares for you, talks to you and such warms the soul and makes us amaze at the world and the mighty power of God. We fight for what we want and much more for what we need. Although this new journey somehow starts with a hiccup but i say that if not taken care properly then let me take you on this new journey ... a whole new world.
The world has changed much and in this past months, i have meet some great humans and have lost some as well, i miss those that have left and wished they would come back, even if for a second but this new path thrills me, excites me and allows me to dream of grand 2012 and brodens my hope, i pray that she will find the path and see what i already know, feel what i have felt and dream what i have realized but as more often than not, i am not one to force, to push, let her find her path to me...to God i can only pray, in my deeds and actions are the true test of and measure of my resolve. How do you tell someone your worth it, Encourage them to fight for you... you dont really, yo pray that they see it, this new plant that is growing and it needs nourishment. Times i always believed that i am destined to be alone and just but a candle that burns for someone, i still harbour hope and pray that someone will find me worthy enough to give me a space to belong.
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| Planning the world |
As the day goes by, i met my old brother of arms and together we forge a new alliance, a new force to battle for but the last time, and as time grows so does all of us, we feel the pangs of ache of age, we find that we are too tired to find out the things and to be ourselves. So as the day grows weary and the year comes to a closing, we must learn to look at life from a different angle and take things in our hands, Let us find hope and let it grow..Having ties to the past does not mean anything if you do not grow from it, progress from it and move to the next stage of evolution. If not then we are not growing but rather just pausing, waiting and wasting while life passes us by. Take the chance, take the leap for never forget that the journey is and will always be more rewarding than the destination. As usual i leave behind some pics of this past month, take care folks.
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| Maskiara's Launch |
PEACE.
