Today (well yesterday..tat is 10/10) was my son's birthday. Since his mom and sister could not make it, i decide to take him out to town to all the rides and play ground. He was happy as a clam, though a bit of stomach upset, he jumped and played till evening. in fact just put him to bed. He turned 2 today. i wonder how will it be when he turns 20, with the current issues at hand,its hard for me to see what the future will bring. Watching other families, i wish things could have turned out better.
now i am left pondering, how to decide for the best for their future. He& his sister, cant be selfish on the matter, have to think of them,i dont want them growing up on the road or deprived of certain things, as i was growing up, my dad was away most time and when they were born, i swore an oath that i will never let them feel abandon or neglected (not that i felt that way when i was young, my mom was around 100% and my dad was special that he made us know he was there even if he was far away). For all this reasons that i decline taking up a job offer to manage an international exhibition or an international event company rather i am contented to stay where i am make the best of what i have here, surely no plans to be a millionaire anymore but rather saving up for their future. i hope and pray everynight that god intervenes and makes things right because i really don't want to put them through a trial and error process, rather at thier tender age, it would be best they grow up in a safe, stable enviroment, constantly attended to and frequent at family functions, this i releasied that even by staying a mere 30 minutes from my home town, i failed to bring them closer, now that i have moved back to my home town, i hope to give them the stable and comfortable life that they deserve. Pray with me...
