Sunday, February 9, 2014

Of those things

Its almost 6 am in the morning and i just got home. Where was i? out with some brothers ... anyway..just wanted to write..dont like it then log off ya..

Listening to Streets of Fire..One of my all time favorite... well it was hell of a week, work and work..till i cannot think and over board.. so ..pen a few..

To the one that feels i owe you and that im your my servant while your the master...

The world is round and till you are all alone then do not talk about lost or sacrifice, As you whine about how things are looking bad, have you yet forgotten how was it that we got here? how we had to rent a car and convince the powers that be to let us have the event. The event that not only changed our lives but the whole scene of the sport, Still after 4 years, you are never grateful that we are not merely running a cyber cafe nor your stuck in a lwa office that is slowing sinking, in spite of all the losses and all the pain, we have walked to the PM office, ministers office, Been in the inner circle of a former prime minister, who is now a mentor, Close and tight with a chief minister,in spite of all the cheating and betrayal of the people around us but yet we survive, we may not exploit it as others, we go with our hearts and hopes and hard work, till now we have partners across the country and within, people who trust our judgment and vision. Where does it come from? did it come from you? are you now putting and making the sacrifices needed to make it work or are you merely making noise from a safe spot and waiting to jump on the bandwagon. YES, before you gave the it breath but that was before, who pushed it thru, who holded your hand in dark times? Who has gained in the past two years? and who will this next few years, am i yet still have to give everything up? handle as minute as your bookings? why dont i just step up and move on my own, i mean i said three years and three years its up, if we cannot accept what must be done then i would be damn to be only bread winner the only one figuring things out, if anyone wants to be the boss of me then behave and take on the hat, if merely whining, my daughter also can. I want us to excel.. i want us to be all that we can be.. WE not YOU or I.. WE.

To the one that i still yet keep my hopes up.

Over and over i get hurt .over and over i feel used and abused but yet still after all this time, i guess its time to walk away and accept the fact that it is not working. If you cannot see it then i cant help you.If you think i am merely a person to call on when you need my help but not ever thinking of my needs and want, or how i am doing, thus what is the point of whining of love or poems of a life of eqtiqque when you cant even practice what you preach. The ball is in your court.

To those that think i am cold and heartless.

Yes i am, i do not have the heart . it is a must to be the leader of this world but yet i have never cheated anyone, never said NO to request of help if i am able to . THINK.

To those that think i owe you

Yes i do but i can only do so much, if you cant complete and take of the chances, i will not sacrifice my kids just merely to save you.

To the one that gave me the two jewels in my life

I now know why, kierra and Iddraqi are the reasons that i am still here fighting, after all the crap that you have been thru, i am happy that you have found happiness, glad even though i feel i may never find the happiness of being loved and cherish while being challenged i am glad one of us made it, for me, my journey is tied to the kids and it is to them that i dedicate my life to, that is why people or potential partners feel i am cold or abusive it because my priority is the kids.

To the one who gave me the chance

Yes i may owe but who doesn't, we fight and we do what we can.  The journey is not over yet.. it is merely starting

To the rest of you

Find your place in this world, if you cannot find it then create one for it is our role in the scheme of things that define who we are and that is what we will be remembered for. Find love and keep it close.

Peace