With 18 000 people

Lost Boyz in WPPL.

Its almost a month after WCA and here i am on keyboard again, guess you can tell how busy i am huh? hahahahahh well truth to be told, i am pretty busy esp with the preparation of AKR expansion and the events coming in the year 2012.

The tiesto Concert with 18000 ppl

As the year gets closer to closing, many questions play in my about the coming year. how will things be? will things change and surely it must but good or bad? at times, i often consul others that in darkness or bad times there are forever silver linings and rewards from god. Being human makes us prone to ego, selfishness and we always tend to forget the goodness of others. It is always far easier to hate some one then love em. Why is that so? when love or "i love you" is surely the most used phrase in the world? its because it is said without real intent, loving is hard because you must sacrifice urself for your love ones. Look at a mother to a child, she would rather not have anything just so her child can have everything. That is love.

Looking at the year end, as the ultimate human student, i often look at the hearts we have and often wonder how we can make mistakes or be blind? how we hide our trueself ...write about something but yet never do it, say we forgive when we dont, pray to God when in fact we only remember him when times are bad. Looking at the world, we could use some honesty and love, the world is already bad as it is so what is a few egos and pride? is it really wrong to open open and tell a person how much he or she means to u? no one knows how much time they have, what if we dont get to say what we want to say? Let me end by a short story...

Movie time in KL

"There was once a couple, she was very hard to win but he tried and tried and lastly he simply gave up on winning her. Some how through the miracle of God, her heart opened up and accepted him. He was so happy that he promised her that he will always be by her side and support her through hard and good times.

And so one day they went walking by the beach and a very hard storm came and as they walked side by side the rain and storm hit... once the rain had stopped, a pair of angels looked at the 2 sets of footprints by the beach, one agel said "look at the charming couple, walking side by side, you can tell from the 2 footprints..so loving" then the other angel said " but here u see, when the storm hit its hardest..there is only 1 set of footprint, so you see, he left her at the hardest part of the storm"

The other angel replied" that is where you are wrong my friend, for when it rained the hardest, you only see one set of footprint is because he was carrying her in his arms all the way through out the storm, for that is how much he love her"

The Jedi's 

So dont ever lose sight of those that manage to win your heart and warm your soul, dont dream of your wants when you already have what you need. Being selfish is fine as long as your selfish enough for both. Look at your heart now and find the silver lining. As usual here are some pics of the week. till later
PEACE.

The last mile

Forging ahead

Its December, in a few weeks we will be saying goodbye to 2011. Oh 2011, What a wonderful time have you given us. The ups and downs, the thrills and joys, the celebrations and the tragedy that had us athe edge of our seats. In this last 11 months, i would not be able to say what the others had learn. Did we learn from our mistakes? did we grow? did we hurt people? did we forgive them? alas so many questions...

Yanti's Wedding

For me the biggest thing i had learn or witness was the human factor. For in the Quran, it was said that the devil asked what was so great about human, for they are only built with earth. I would say after this 11 months, although for many i have written in the past but yet, it never fails me, the human nature.

LOVE vs HATE

The most over used word in the world, love is but something that is usually misunderstood and wrongly represented. In this past 11 months, i have seen how love can turn to hate and vice versa. It just baffles me that we can love the sweetness of others but we hate the sourness of a person. Why is this so? as we try to be perfect human and we search for the perfect love, we always forget that it never been recorded in existent but yet as humans we never fail to try, to dream, to hope and lastly to pray. For a humble person like me, i am amazed that people can profess and write about love, lost and forgiveness but yet they never do practice it when they are faced with it. Do we really know what we are doing? would we ever grow if we never allow us to progress. For some love is a hard thing but as often i have said, love is like a plant that needs sunlight, water and nourishment to grow but also love is similar to other things in life, we as we nuture it to grow may forget to water it or let it have some sunlight, thus the love starts to get weak and will usually die. So, what is love vs hate? it is for more easier to hate people rather than love them. For love demands sacrifices and understanding.

In Shadow I find peace

For your truly, the search for eternal love is by far the greatest adventure i can partake and it is the words of my father that reminds me that at times it is the journey that is more satisfying the destination. Faces with a breakup in the past, a cold wall that blocks all my attempts it was a small hole in the my own soul that opened a small ray of hope to my soul. it warms the body and fuels the heart while reviving the soul. But nothing in life is ever easy, my dad always said that we must fight for what we want then only we will truly value what we have. To some let me tell you a secret, NO angel will come down and take your hand to your "jodoh" and say this is the one for you, then you gaze into each other eyes, fall in love and live happily ever after, no guys, that only happens in the movies. For true love is hard to find, i may have stumbled on to it but was never lucky enough to make it stay and i learn from every venture of it, even now with this new journey that is calling me to take this path, the soul and heart shivers... the hope and dreams rejoice.. for one must never forget, with joy there is always pain and with happiness there will be sadness but this are but small price to pay. To have that smile on me, the look of her eyes and to know that someone somewhere cares for you, talks to you and such warms the soul and makes us amaze at the world and the mighty power of God. We fight for what we want and much more for what we need. Although this new journey somehow starts with a hiccup but i say that if not taken care properly then let me take you on this new journey ... a whole new world.

The world has changed much and in this past months, i have meet some great humans and have lost some as well, i miss those that have left and wished they would come back, even if for a second but this new path thrills me, excites me and allows me to dream of grand 2012 and brodens my hope, i pray that she will find the path and see what i already know, feel what i have felt and dream what i have realized but as more often than not, i am not one to force, to push, let her find her path to me...to God i can only pray, in my deeds and actions are the true test of and measure of my resolve. How do you tell someone your worth it, Encourage them to fight for you... you dont really, yo pray that they see it, this new plant that is growing and it needs nourishment. Times i always believed that i am destined to be alone and just but a candle that burns for someone, i still harbour hope and pray that someone will find me worthy enough to give me a space to belong.

Planning the world

As the day goes by, i met my old brother of arms and together we forge a new alliance, a new force to battle for but the last time, and as time grows so does all of us, we feel the pangs of ache of age, we find that we are too tired to find out the things and to be ourselves. So as the day grows weary and the year comes to a closing, we must learn to look at life from a different angle and take things in our hands, Let us find hope and let it grow..Having ties to the past does not mean anything if you do not grow from it, progress from it and move to the next stage of evolution. If not then we are not growing but rather just pausing, waiting and wasting while life passes us by. Take the chance, take the leap for never forget that the journey is and will always be more rewarding than the destination. As usual i leave behind some pics of this past month, take care folks.

Maskiara's Launch

PEACE.

The aftermath....

Its the 17th of November, yup i have been away for a long time...hahahaha was busy with World Cup Asia 2011(for those of you in Malaysia, if you dont know that it was going on the MAN! move to thailand! hahaha) Many things to write but as usual too many in my head...where to start?
Lets try by section, shall we...

My Birthday (28 September)

I dont really plan to celebrate it actually but i was surprised that the family (AKR) threw me a karaoke party, though the ate was wrong but hey its the thoughts that count. so there i was in the midst of a 800 pax dinner at Crown plaze, that had the royal VVIP-HRH Tuanku Sultan of Kedah, we had testing time with a new team but the show when without much errors and by the time the event was over, they pulled me to a karaoke to have a surprise party with the staff and friends. I was touched really i was. and a later we went to watched a band, of which i ended up on stage rapping "In the End" (my all time fav love song hahahaha)

In the night as the people left me alone..(yeah we are always alone arent we not?) i was left missing my brothers and wondering how my life will be in the next 5 years. its hard as we grown up, we tend to think of the mistakes that we have made and how we wished we had a time machine but in the end (no pun intended) we must value life, accept what god gives us and take the chances that comes to the fullest. More i try to find someone to save me, more often than not im the one that does the saving and being the candle but i believe in the end (again no pun intended) it is all worthwhile.. here are some pics from that day..

Adik's 4th Birthday (10-10-2011)

Raya Haji
This raya haji i was in Langkawi, busy setting up WCA 2011, my family was kind enough to come and share the holidays with me... times like this i wonder how am i doing as a father, with my busy day and work, i always feel lost without my kids, i do wonder how my dad use to leave us in the old days when i cant seem to breathe without my kids at all. even so, we had a great time and after they left WCA 2011, started..



World Cup Asia 2011

The 3 Musketeers 

What can i say about the biggest paintball event ever? you can read it in the many facebooks and blogs around the world for me on my blog the thing that was close to my heart was the people invlovled in making it work, PALS, AKR, RIM and of course LostBoyz. We had played our hearts out in D1 and gotten a placing of 13 but yet we didnt make it to the second round (why la you didint do top 16 PALS???) but the shadows that kept me going and the team of AKR that put in their best was what made me proud, putting aside pain and selfishness, we toiled to make the event a success, even with all the hardships and obsticle in front of us, only those in the inner circle jnow what i am referring to but yet we survived it all and best of all it was a success.

A visit by the minister

AKR Retreat

There was someone that had managed to push a small hole in this thick wall of mine and although i had tried to stay away due to the status that person is in but i find myself drawn like a moth to a flame, as i type this i am cautious of this feeling that is growing and worried about the loss of battel between my heart and my head. Still i have faith in God and it is to him that i will wait for the guide.

I too saw the side of people that i had not imagined, the sacrifices and selfishness, the ego and love, all for the sake of themsleves or for the sake of others but thru it all, it is not up to me to judge but rather up to themselves to choose the path they want to lead, just be considerate of others as dont them burn too much. for all that, let WCA 2011 be the best of a start to a new age..a new journey and OH what an adventure it will be..
PEACE Folks

The opening Dinner

Press Interview

Bini2ku PA-The team that handled admin&PR

LostBoyz with the WCA Ambassadors 

Gua.Com interview after the game

The 3 ladies that constantly kept me a Buzz..great work ladies

Finally recognition- Malaysia Book Of Records

Me and my Son

Fund raiser

Briefing Dato Seri on WCA

It's been a while since i wrote ( 11 days) i have been so busy with WCA in 45 days....(arghhhhhh) in most of my event time, this is probably the a true test of myself, with a new team, new boss (jawatan kuasa) and no emotional support, libra's are truly a breed of weirdness, we can pretty much standup and take the heat but quietly in the night when lonely blows into our ears, sleeps escapes and memories flood in.

The cure to my soul

Anyway, the dinner is taking shape pretty good, yah some stressed moments coming but in all the team is looking pretty solid and not much booboo (well got la some) and as such we put  forth the 900 dinner at Crown Plaze, KL. Running around and setting things up, i guess the hardest part of being the head is that i have to trust the team to deliver, the speech, media, seating and most important is the operations, being an operations man all my life, it is so hard to let go and just wait , with all this butterfly in my tummy, wincing and worrying where is the fumble going to come. i guess i do have a problem of letting go, even to those who hurt me, those that although i did wrong and doing my damnedest to make amends, kueh raya delivery to the home town, the thoughts, sms, emails and everything else but yet its ignored as if nothing existed. i guess in the end it surprised me that someone so close to me can act this way, i shudder to imagine the future for such a stone cold person but looking around, seems she is going on pretty well thus it goes back to my list of me being used and abused. Many people ask me why? i guess its the hope, i may have the undying hope syndrome (hahahahahah) and it is so hard for me to let go, i tend to dream of change and some miracle that would happen which would be like in the movies. Well, dreamers are that we are, we have to dream in something so that there is hope in despair. But in all aspect, there are times that we have to let go, for me, she is gone and will be a memory, i will find the best memory to keep with me and move on with my ilfe.

For some, well for me, hope comes in places that i could never imagine, and frankly, i dont know how this will pan out in the next 45 days as i asked that i be given full immunity in the next 45 days for what ever i do (hahahahahah) as the love story of my dad and my mom. 

The kids are fine, its just i miss them like crazy because of this crazy schedule of mine, langkawi, kedah and kl that has got me going round&round till i also dunno where i am hahahahah , if it was Paris, New York and KL sedap la jugak. so as we prepare for WCA, do make yourself free and come visit the greatest Paintball tournament on earth (and watch the Tune Talk LostBoyz MSN featuring in D1-more like us getting blasted)So as a parting blog, here are some pictures from this past crazy 20 days.
Peace

Ami Chik's House

Aunty and Niece 

Raya in KL-Mummy's House

Meeting with Dato Seri 

The day that recharges me

Adik's killer pose

Raya Photo Blog

Salam....Too much in my head to write...but its not ready yet i guess so make do with this photo blog.

Kakak kierra buying her raya shoes.She is so grown up

Adik taking a break..

Mak&Ayah famous Ikan terubuk bakar..hahaha kesian my brothers tak sempat balik. 
This was on last day puasa.

Kakak and Wan ketupat making time.. her first

Sebelum damage raya hahahah

Awe and adik getting ready to visit Zaki&Izzany
(note his raya drink hehe)

Memang taklepas la ni hahaha

As always Kierra the loving one

The most sebak time for me...forgive me mom

The pillars of my life

My mom ..

My girl..always and forever

Pillars and life..(one pillar still missing heheh)
Adik as usual..

The remaining Syed Nong Son..

Camera man ngantuk (Aweeeee!!!)

Langgar, the house i grew up in..every raya with Ein&Pon
and now its the time for my kids..

Checking out the chicks hahahah
handsome anak walid ni

Rare pic

The dinning hall..dulu i ingat kami makan tepi tangga
now dah senior sikit boleh makan kat table
hahah
Miss my grandma (Hajjah Tok Don)

Kierra,Iddraqi&Zara(Anak Amy&watif)
Discuss duit raya investment hahah

Mak the ever Mother to all
(ya ya nanti la cari bini hahah)

When Lost Boyz came to town
Thanks brothers..i am nothing without u all
(Sjoe dok sibuk kat SAHOCA)

Rarest of pics
Adik&Amy

Wan dan cucu-cucunya

Raya umah Ami noi-Mahirah,Daniel&Zahirah
Kierra's Auntie&Uncle

Raya 3rd day..You cant see kierra's necklace

but its there.. THANK YOU.

Adiks own playground at Ami Syed's house

Raya umah Ami Syed&Rizal

In life, i am forever grateful for what god has given me, i am not bitter of the things that He has taken away but rather i accept it with the humblest sense of learning as He knows best. If love is there it will find me and fight for it as fiercely that i am able. Seems i am stuck at the moment, with the last journey in tatters and a new journey that i don't even know if it will start.. I try and yet as always i keep hoping... (Open your eyes!!)

Alrites back to work....

Peace