Monday, May 19, 2014

Trip of an expectant kind


Trip of an expectant kind 

Along came and pick me up and then we went to get amy. From there we drove straight to danok and did the usual taxi arrangement.  The guy was an old friend son but still he wanted to jedi me with 360 for the 3 of us. Along couldn't go to hatyai as his parents was on the way in. I asked for a favor and asked him to adjust and he did. Now I haven't eaten anything from morning but needed to lock the flights so I had to head into hatyai first. Told the tummy to shut up and away we drove. The driver made a pit stop to put petrol and even sold petrol to some customers. .imagine that. We proudly told us that the petrol was from malaysia.. hahaha .. after this stop,we headed into hatyai as I had to change money. I remembered the last time  I went to Bangkok. The rates inhatyai was better than there. So back to the familiar town..memories of years came flushing back..anyway got a rate for 9.80 (gonna go check later in bangkok) it was to the airport.  The driver friend kept calling me to ask where were he staying as he was trying to sell hotel rooms and girls I guess but im an old traveler in hatyai so I told him that I havent figured it out yet. 13 km to airport which is about 20mins with the car whizzing thru traffic,we made it.

Thai airport security was tight,even from before. They check everything prior to ur entrance into the airport. Even cars was checked twice. Once in the airport,I had to figure out the flight. There are two airports in bangkok and I had to go to the right one. From nok air to air asia,I finally choose thai airways (always wanted to fly thai) and bought the tix to and fro which xame to rm450. I was there atv1245 and the next flight easier was at 335pm. Jezzzz... so as along and amy left,decided to call her and get some food. So I called her..we chatted a bit and laugh a whole lot more..the signes of missing each other and the anticipation of seeing each other hidden within words and sentences.
Lining up for f;ight
Sat down for chicken rice. .didn't even taste it..its like im on auto pilot. All the while a sinking feeling in my gut.. worried..in fact I have never left on a solo trip. After losing zaki and izzany,im always on guard for the next tragedy. Scared I wont be back in time... but i kinda heard my dad whispering that there are times that we must have peace and solitude.  She brings me peace and intrigue me so,this big sacrifice that im putting up is for her so that I could earn place within her life. Oh ..anyway..

After chicken rice was done, I looked for a smoking area..oh my god its so hard to find but found one in the top restaurant.  Had cha yen (thai for iced tea hahahaha) and smoked up..knowing the next one be far off. As i got up to go to the departure hall, I make a silent prayer to al mighty to watch over my kids and family,my company . my team and my work as I am away.

Getting into the departure area proved another intense checking...mh370 whiplash maybe.. then its 3pm now and im sitting here waiting to board. One thing I can say..the chairs are really comfortable.

Sooooo what did I get her? It was tough call.. yes the romantic soul is awaken but I wanted to do something different,something I never did for anyone in 44 years, I decided to combine and make it a package. I just hope I dont overdue it..which I have a tendency of doing...

Warmth- in everything we need warmth. In relationship,warmth is measured in actions,words and deeds. This was the first gift. Warmth (Dont get wrong idea..dirty minded)

Time- what is the point if we cant make time?  I have lost due to insufficient time and yes my time is prioritised to my kids and family but its right to expand it a bit and include her on the list. So that was the second gift. Time.

Memories- memories are the only treasure that last with us. Other things will be lost for memories stay within us,good or bad it is was shapes our actions and are our lessons. The third gift I gave her was memories,although its only been over 60 days but there a million moments we shared.. that was my third gift. Memories.

Trust- this is the essence of life,for without it then nothing will be worth it. It is harder to do than said. Demons. .old bad memories usually get the better of us and causes us to suspect and assume and this leads to an all out war. So as proof of trust. That was the forth gift, Trust.

Sugar-To encompass all this gifts, I gave the final gift of sugar. This is so that pur journey will always be sweet,even thru dark and stormy times. Sugar. (Deym thing melted in the bag)

Ok gonna get back reading my book. Will update later.

Update 6pm thai. Just landed. Damn plane was delayed. ..sigh.. ok waiting for bag..why am I nervous? I have face em all and im nervous???

Update 930pm thai.. met with her...oh how much have I missed that smile... got back to her house..really nice house..met up with the family. (Deym chocs melted in the bag..now how am I gonna do this)
Mum: very nice.thai culture and she is so cool,. Cooked for me and all. Tried chatting but language barrier... Ok here is the breakdown:

Toi: man of the house. Nice guy, funny, Decent. .and accommodating.

Pon and pen: niece and nephew.  Kids will be kids.  They were a tad shocked when i ate with my hands. Should have bought chocs or something. This language barrier is hard..gonna resolve it for my next trip.

Chien- brother. Looks a lot like her, spoke in english to him so the barrier wasn't bad.

Mickey: growls a lot but a kitten a heart.  Very adorable. 

Kitty: wiser than mickey but also cuddly and ended up kissing me all over.

The house is nice and petit.  Comfy and roomy.  Semi detached housing estate, pretty posh area as well.
Bangsen Beach
Ok heading out to the beach..We went to Bangsen Beach..
Which reminds me of penang.. penang of old.. it was filled with students as the uni was very near by.  Had a few pool games. we chatted.  Hard for people to believe but that is an ideal outing for me. Came home happy and far more happier than before all the stress seems to melt aways..all fits so perfectly.

4/05/14  

Woke up after a good sleep,..wow thats rare..usually in a new place,my senses r always alert but so relaxed here. A quick shower as there was a sweet enticing smell from the kitchen.  She was cooking..her mom made a thai sup and it was a delicious lunch..with her brother and sister in law (well he didnt eat,said diet and made me shy with my tummy hahahah) It kind makes me wonder,what do they think of me being there.  A muslim divorced dude in their home but they made me feel so welcome that I dont have the slightest fear or discomfort.  Another sign perhaps?
Then after lunch as usual,work calls. Spoke to the team and tony. Arranged a few stuff and troubleshooting. I really want her to come to lgk for muay thai on the 8th but worried about her return back..she might be too tired and alone.
Today was more to shopping.  With some issues of work back home, had to balance. But she,her mom and me went to the near mall and shopped..had star bucks. Managed to get most of everything for everyone. 

Great Company with a good view

As we finished, we went home to get the rest of the family for dinner. She took me to the family favourite local dinning spot. Mouy aroi, beach front seafood place. It was wonderful.  We had so many dishes and the taste was good. It was very clean and borders on the beach.  It had a 3 layer sitting place and only 2 smoking zone. Serivce was alright and we had a great time. Surely a place to bring my family up.we ended thr night with a chill session at home and prepared for tmr. Why am I leaving so soon..sigh.

05/05/14
My two models hehehe
nam tok waterfall.

Woke at 7am.. everyone was up to go waterfall. The kids and some of her mom friends.. after a quick shower,went to the living room and was shocked to find all the food everyone was preparing. As we packed,she told me it was about 2 hours drive to it. And her mom borrowed a big pickup and she was driving but seeing it was a manual and like it was a bit hard so I volunteered to drive. Wooow hoo ! Driving in Thailand to a waterfall, the drive was cool,we stopped at her brothers place and pickup her mom friends.  After 2 hours and thru back roads which borders mymar, we arrived.
There was a tix price and all 8 of us costed rm35..not bad at all. Once inside,I can help but be amazed of how clean and organozed everything is. There were security people and dustbins everywhere.
We had brought kitty amd mickey although it was not allowed amd hence some ninja needed to be done. 




We first had massive picnic and ate the roasted chicken we bought by the road side.  After the meal we made our way up. Unlucky for us the guard saw and moved in to stop the us. So her mom was left behind to tend to mickey and kitty. We treked onwards. After a short walk we came to the first level. Inwas told there are 7 levels amd we had to hike up. Which we did. 
The hike was beautiful and I did not even see one cigarette butt which goes to show how clean the waterfall is. We hiked up the 3rd level and stopped to swim. It was great..water so clean and cold and even had carps in them. It is said that thos carps if eaten will cause intoxication. ..an alternative to whiskey perhaps hahahaha. And so we pushed on.


At the 4th level..the water was so clear and beautiful.  The air clean... I think telaga tujuh langkawi should be like this.

We drove home and I rode in the back pf the truck.  Its a fun ride back. When we go home, everyone showered and I had dinner on a local stall. Just chit chat and relaxed. Came back and quietly presented her birthday gifts, the smile and joy in her eyes is something i will cherish for all my life.. it made everything worthwhile. 

06/05/2014-  
7am. On the way to follow her and family to temple. I followed to a nearby temple and watch the praying ceremony. It was her birthday so it was a special prayer added in then I realized that theirs is almost the same with a surmon to the followers. Later we went seafood shopping.  I was surprised at the freshness of the fish and crabs..there many stalls lined up and most of the seafood were still alive. After that we headed to a local plant shop and bought some plants. In malay culture,at birth,wedding or a start of something new,plants are planted to be a source of good luck and as a sign of growth in the endeavor.  Our last stop was a durian stall and again I learned something new of how durian fruits are bought and sold.
Well after all this u can guess it was a massive lunch..hahaahah seafood galore and durian as desserts. .. we all took a short nap.
Beautiful and yeah the view was nice as well 

Later we headed to the pattaya,it wasn't far and once there we had dinner at this romantic place over looking the beach. It was built on a cliff and had tiers for diners. Cosy and romantic,it was an ideal place to celebrate her bday. We sat and chatted and talked and later drove to the famous walking bar where it was filled with people and activites. We picked a bar with a live band and shot some pool. It was great and later drove back.

The final day,I woke with sadness at leaving and yet excited to see my kids again.. weird being sad and excited at the same time.. we took a drive to pattaya floating market to get last minute gift for friends and family.  After that we took drive to the airport after lunch. The floating market was again clean and properly managed. It had many activites and was built with areas for tourist.prices were cheap and the seller friendly. 

In all the trip was not something that i had expected at all, many of course would imagine a birthday with a massive party and friends and sorts but i was taken back with the trip, it was so humble and homely and brought back the old of me, i planted trees, help around the house, drove everywhere and it was as if things are meant to be, now it is about balance and merge, for i too have family and everywhere i went and did, i kept thinking Oh Ya Kierra would love this, Adik would be happy running there and i do plan a next trip with the kids, go take em see the dolphine show. All in all, we must try, difreent culuture or religon does not it must end but rather it is a challenging but yet rewarding journey but we must be bold, be brave for every journey has mishaps and problems and do we stop and turn around (deym this song is actually playing now hahahah) and return to where came or do we be brave enough to repair the damage and continue the journey. As i return to Malaysia, i know that i have left a piece of me behind in Chun Buri and yet that it will grow and be a strong tree, strong enough to withstand the strongest winds and yet shady to block event the hottest of sun light. Well thats all folks, till next time. Keep your hopes up, Be brave and remember to include MH370 into your prayers and please do not forget them, keep them alight and burn within us. 
PEACE.
Welcome home committee 








Pattaya


Beef Noodle at Floating Market


My forever cheer up team

Friday, May 2, 2014

Must love dogs


Oh god did i missed April? Izzany birthday was on 24th while Nissa was 28th, so Happy Birthday wishes. Izzany, how i miss you brother.
damn... Well was busy with work and life but i thought i take this time to write a bit before i fly off.

Was at home and watched "Must Have Dogs" on Astro, an old love romantic movie but it was nice, i do take watching movies seriously, as times we learn some lessons in it. For me it was a sweet movie of how one recovers and bounce back to the relationship thing after being hurt or alone for a long time, the cliche of the movie was how the girl actually came back and swam for the man (you have to watch it to know it)
This i guess is the ethos of matters, How important is someone in our life? is it true that we under value those that is most valuable and chase those that are not? what about chasing dreams that aren't real while letting go the miracle that is in front of us? I don't have the answers for all that, for me i take my cue from God and Fate. Being slapped by a girl kinda work me.. go figure. Well times i wish life are movies, )have my red cape and underwear on standby*superman*) I wish it would be easier if we could just tell people what it is that is in our mind, assure them to rest their fears and that we are scared too, to heal and give another chance, for it would be so nice to be valued, to know that you are important in the grand scheme of things and not merely an object of money, work or ideas, being a leader is a lonely place. Talking about that, there was another movie called "For Love or Money"(although i did write about it once) this guy gave up his dream investor to be with the girl as the girl was going away, what would it take for us to realize the value of others? to take the next step in a growing relationship and making the jump. Being at my age (28 always hahaha) gives me the glimpse and worry that others don't see, the skill to look forward and avoid potholes (still hitting them) is hard to acquire. I guess life is just like that. Since 2009, i have never taken a proper time off, only recently with trips to Lgk as a tourist, genting and bukit tinggi, non family, just me and her. Its not that i could have not done it before but was never motivated to do it. And tomorrow, i take a step by taking a first personal vacation in over 8 years. Scared? you betcha but you never know until you try and even if its not mutual but i feel in my gut that its worth taking the step.

For in relationship, i guess it is always in stages, in a world of freedom and liberal, the first night is the hardest and surviving it is like the first step. Then comes the adjustment period where you try hide your shortcomings and highlight your good ones and then comes the natural stage, where you explore and learn more. I had given up long time ago, with girls now days on a money and status stage, so on this journey, i just let it happen, no planning no expectations and surprisingly everything clicks into place, a tad fast but 60 days flies by so fast, Why must be scared of the future? For future is what we shape it to be. Sacrifices and effort become easy if we do it from the heart and now with bad intentions. I trust in God and his will is my path, for everything happens for a reason and it is up to us to make full of the chances and blessing that He has given us.

As time draws on us, we must always value for what we have and treasure it, like a plant, furnish it with water (love), build a strong foundation(trust) and give it sunlight to grow (responsibility) for if not it will stray or worse die. Many times i had wished those in the past would have seen this, maybe i didnt try hard enough but for this time, i am going the extra mile to see if what i feel is real or merely a mirage. Pray for me.

On that note, Please don't stop praying for MH370, do not forget them, pray for them in our daily prayers. For collectively we are far stronger than being alone.

Peace.

Keep praying please

My reasons

A journey

Water day

Failed camera man