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Briefing Dato Seri on WCA

It's been a while since i wrote ( 11 days) i have been so busy with WCA in 45 days....(arghhhhhh) in most of my event time, this is probably the a true test of myself, with a new team, new boss (jawatan kuasa) and no emotional support, libra's are truly a breed of weirdness, we can pretty much standup and take the heat but quietly in the night when lonely blows into our ears, sleeps escapes and memories flood in.

The cure to my soul

Anyway, the dinner is taking shape pretty good, yah some stressed moments coming but in all the team is looking pretty solid and not much booboo (well got la some) and as such we put  forth the 900 dinner at Crown Plaze, KL. Running around and setting things up, i guess the hardest part of being the head is that i have to trust the team to deliver, the speech, media, seating and most important is the operations, being an operations man all my life, it is so hard to let go and just wait , with all this butterfly in my tummy, wincing and worrying where is the fumble going to come. i guess i do have a problem of letting go, even to those who hurt me, those that although i did wrong and doing my damnedest to make amends, kueh raya delivery to the home town, the thoughts, sms, emails and everything else but yet its ignored as if nothing existed. i guess in the end it surprised me that someone so close to me can act this way, i shudder to imagine the future for such a stone cold person but looking around, seems she is going on pretty well thus it goes back to my list of me being used and abused. Many people ask me why? i guess its the hope, i may have the undying hope syndrome (hahahahahah) and it is so hard for me to let go, i tend to dream of change and some miracle that would happen which would be like in the movies. Well, dreamers are that we are, we have to dream in something so that there is hope in despair. But in all aspect, there are times that we have to let go, for me, she is gone and will be a memory, i will find the best memory to keep with me and move on with my ilfe.

For some, well for me, hope comes in places that i could never imagine, and frankly, i dont know how this will pan out in the next 45 days as i asked that i be given full immunity in the next 45 days for what ever i do (hahahahahah) as the love story of my dad and my mom. 

The kids are fine, its just i miss them like crazy because of this crazy schedule of mine, langkawi, kedah and kl that has got me going round&round till i also dunno where i am hahahahah , if it was Paris, New York and KL sedap la jugak. so as we prepare for WCA, do make yourself free and come visit the greatest Paintball tournament on earth (and watch the Tune Talk LostBoyz MSN featuring in D1-more like us getting blasted)So as a parting blog, here are some pictures from this past crazy 20 days.
Peace

Ami Chik's House

Aunty and Niece 

Raya in KL-Mummy's House

Meeting with Dato Seri 

The day that recharges me

Adik's killer pose

Raya Photo Blog

Salam....Too much in my head to write...but its not ready yet i guess so make do with this photo blog.

Kakak kierra buying her raya shoes.She is so grown up

Adik taking a break..

Mak&Ayah famous Ikan terubuk bakar..hahaha kesian my brothers tak sempat balik. 
This was on last day puasa.

Kakak and Wan ketupat making time.. her first

Sebelum damage raya hahahah

Awe and adik getting ready to visit Zaki&Izzany
(note his raya drink hehe)

Memang taklepas la ni hahaha

As always Kierra the loving one

The most sebak time for me...forgive me mom

The pillars of my life

My mom ..

My girl..always and forever

Pillars and life..(one pillar still missing heheh)
Adik as usual..

The remaining Syed Nong Son..

Camera man ngantuk (Aweeeee!!!)

Langgar, the house i grew up in..every raya with Ein&Pon
and now its the time for my kids..

Checking out the chicks hahahah
handsome anak walid ni

Rare pic

The dinning hall..dulu i ingat kami makan tepi tangga
now dah senior sikit boleh makan kat table
hahah
Miss my grandma (Hajjah Tok Don)

Kierra,Iddraqi&Zara(Anak Amy&watif)
Discuss duit raya investment hahah

Mak the ever Mother to all
(ya ya nanti la cari bini hahah)

When Lost Boyz came to town
Thanks brothers..i am nothing without u all
(Sjoe dok sibuk kat SAHOCA)

Rarest of pics
Adik&Amy

Wan dan cucu-cucunya

Raya umah Ami noi-Mahirah,Daniel&Zahirah
Kierra's Auntie&Uncle

Raya 3rd day..You cant see kierra's necklace

but its there.. THANK YOU.

Adiks own playground at Ami Syed's house

Raya umah Ami Syed&Rizal

In life, i am forever grateful for what god has given me, i am not bitter of the things that He has taken away but rather i accept it with the humblest sense of learning as He knows best. If love is there it will find me and fight for it as fiercely that i am able. Seems i am stuck at the moment, with the last journey in tatters and a new journey that i don't even know if it will start.. I try and yet as always i keep hoping... (Open your eyes!!)

Alrites back to work....

Peace

Shawal

And the month of fasting ends... Raya starts and again the most dpressing but yet happy times.. Depressed due to missing my dad&brothers(raya the most) thinking of those that have walked away&those that just met, where the journey would begin and where will it end.

Too many to write, the good news is of course the kids are here, sihat semua and now kierra is of age to visit zaki&izzany&tok walid dia. Im sure they are happy by this, now slowly train her. Although only amy&awe came back still, dini did come back and so mak&ayah happier. Nissa also managed to squeeze a short trip to spend a night with the kids&beraya... Time heals all wounds i guess. Her tunang is a good chap thus new chapter begins.

Last year raya, things were still so messy and although not much has changed but still many things have happen. I have changed and such. Although matters of the heart is still yet a big question mark but yet i dont feel it so much, ya the pain still tears me and i find it hard to open up or hope buttttt there are still yet hope and it is in hope that i hang on. I pray and i try for in the end that is about all i can do.

Come raya next year, only god knows what it will being but i wait for it and dream of it. For once u have hope then dreams will be born and dreams will lead to reality. And that folks is raya 2011. Here are some pics...
Peace&selamat hari raya.



My life....after raya with thier mom.



Getting ready for Yanti's engagement.



Dini and adik. He is being nice as dini taking of the sweets haha.
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