Directions

Sailors in the olden days navigate through the darkness of night with the help of the stars then we created compass that is being used untill today. It seems all through out life we are forever finding direction. Where do we go? Its far easier when we were younger...

As we grow up the lines gets blurred. We always look to head somewhere and targets are made. Often the questions that bears down on us is which is the right path? Are we stuck and not moving or are we being patient? Was there a manual that somehow got lost in time?

How do we know that the relationship will develop? How do we know if we should wait it out or move on? Times god gives us a sign, sometimes subtle but yet sometimes pretty clear. In everything, we evolve for that is the nature of humans. If you find that ur stuck, open ur eyes and try to find the signs. We have to change or move on. Is 2 years long enough? Actually theres no time limit, it could be 1 day or 1 year.. Take the sign and decide.

Sometimes, what we have is not enough or what we need.. Does it soothe ur soul? Quash ur needs, pamper u, supporting u in every way? Treat others as we want to be treated. Be a supporter and a leader at times.. In religon or anything as it always takes two. Open ur heart and take the leap of faith. Yes. Faith.. For without faith then there is nothing. We just be sleeping and eating but faith makes us try, faith keeps us going. Although there are times we put faith in the wrong person, we wait it out.. Praying for a change.. A mutual change..

In all of time, directions are what we always yearn for.. Its sad that we have no compass but what we do have is the ability to make choices.. A choice to make things better.. There is always a sign.. Look for it.. Make it better.. Take the leap.

Peace


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Location:Jalan Purnama 5,Alor Setar,Malaysia

Fwd: As she sleeps

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From: <syedsherezal@gmail.com>
Date: Thu, Mar 24, 2011 at 9:43 PM
Subject: As she sleeps
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 I lie awake and watch the beauty,
The beauty that god has pun in my way,
Far I have come to be in her company,
Wondering if we are truly destiny.
As she sleeps.

How do I win her love?
To past her fears and be very close,
Be the one she loves and wants most,
Long for her love that I see in glimpse,
As she sleeps.

Even on hand&foot seldom do I see it,
Seems she is distant&dont need me.
The rarest of emotions that I need,
But yet she hides it deep from me,
As she sleeps.

No denying that she does love me,
As from her necklace that I can see,
From the glow in her eyes&smile,
Her care in her questions to me,
As she sleeps.

Will she get tired of me one day,
Perhaps when she ask me  to go away,
All the sadness will then come my way,
But I will endure it come what may,
As she sleeps.

As I long to caress her wif soft love,
Explore the joys of being in love,
Sharing everything for the sake of love,
Yet I hold back scared to lose her love,
As she sleeps.

Give me even the smallest of sign,
That her love is really mine,
So I will not ever lose sight,
As all this temptation that I fight,
Praying that it will be worthwhile,
As she sleeps.

A Psimaster poem.
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Passing by

Here i am back in kl, much work going on with npoc round the corner,sultans cup a month away&the work for wca starts.
With a fresh team, this gonna b a massive challenge.

Here at bukit bintang alone having lunch while waiting for my meetings, looking at copules passing by, not caring for anything in the world, just having each other seems that is all they need. No need for even food. Then there are the group couples.

Looking at how intimate& lost they are in each other eyes, sends a pang of blue into me, its nice to feel that is it not? To know ur missed, cared& loved I guess in truth, im a firm dreamer of the conceptual of love. The myth of it.
But then again, here i am habing lunch alone... Just shows huh?
So for those of u in love. Show ur partner how much u miss them, dont la kedekut on emotions, no shame in it, its afterall the one u love is it not?

Peace


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Location:Jalan Alor,Kuala Lumpur,Malaysia

Remote control car

Its pretty early for as im at the field for paintball training. Usual saturday since im in as.

As we get things ready, a man came up to me to ask permission to play his remote control car. I said ok, then i saw his 3 kids&wife playing with him. Mind u there is only 1 car. Do u see where im getting at?

Given a choice, im sure the wife or even the dad would rather be at home sleeping (its a holiday here) but here they r in the hot sun playing a remote control car.

Just shows, what it takes to survive a marriage or relationship. Sometimes we have to do things we dont like& like it. Support our partner, hang out with his friends, going to training or games with him. Its not so much of doing anything but him seeing her there, makes things better, u can share stories&support each other. The man too has to do the same, when she shops, do her hair or even hang out.

How many of us take the trouble to do this? This little thing that makes such an impact. If he drinks,envourage him to stop, by slowing down, be there when drinks the occasional time with his friends, being there tells him that u care for him. Times word are not enough.. Still times, it falls on deaf ears, we want ppl to change but we dont want to change. Yet we want but we dont give, explains why ppl hace issues.

Looking at this family.. Im impressed& it gives me hope. I pray that she would love me as i am,as i love her as she is, the good,the bad& ugly. Show rather than tell, there is no ego in love folks.

Peace


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Location:Jalan Kangar - Alor Setar,Alor Setar,Malaysia

The day i flew to kl

Its 1035am,im on the plane to kl. To see her, the woman that captured my heart. Last night while on my way out to see the boys, she texted to ask me tagged pictures of my tome when we were apart. By the time i got home&removed the pics,she had already kicked me out of fb. Of course a non stop texting&phone call continued till early morning.

I wonder at times of the human psyche, how easy it is to forget the good but rather focus on the bad. How hard is it for us to treat others as how we want to be treated. Punishing someone for their mistakes is one thing but keep reminding them of their mistakes is rather cruel. Like a drug addict who has repented&rehilibitated himself, changed to he a better person but if we keep reminding him of his dark mistakes, we dont support him, he will surely fail to reach his goal.

Why do we push those we love? We have spares or backups? We see the short coming of others but not ourselves? A loyal pet if ill treated or doesnt feel appricieated will problay leave broken hearted..

We all want love, no matter what we project on the outside, ego or anger but deep inside we crave love. We want to be pampered, to be loved. Yet we are scacred, scared to get hurt so we create walls to hide behind. Less we forget that love is a simple thing, like a plant growing, it is nutured thru trust, care& love. Be kind and gentle to it, encourage it, support it, care for it and surely it will be returned 10 folds. Stop dwelling in the past, stop searching for the right one & stop blaming god that ur jodoh has not arrived, what god u is the best for u, work at it & fight for it. Its easy to point& blame others for their mistakes but are we truly perfect without flaws of our own. Its easy to make mistakes the hard part is changing urself to remedy the mistake and face the person that was hurt and beg for a second chance. Its easy to say i forgive u but its harder to let it go and start things fresh. Life is already hard as it is why do we want to make it harder?

The woman that stole my heart is truly an enigma to me, can she be a life time partner? Will she be able to love me for my defects, will she be able to be the mother to my children? Will she love me in my most darkest of days? I dont really know.. From the 1st time i laid my eyes on her i knew, in the early months, i kept giving but her lifestyle didnt much reflect a promising future. I made a big mistake by not being there during her time of need, although i was there in other times but that is not important it seems. I know that deep in my soul, its telling me that she is the one. She is the one that completes me. But i cannot do this alone. There are needs&wants. Can she meet me half way? Her change now inspire me to be a better person and soar higher but will she be there for me? Will she finally admit her feelings and accept what god has provided? Or will she walk away?

And that is why im on this early plane to KL.. To find out if she is there for me.

Peace.

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A good day

A good day

The day begins with your voice,
Knowing that im in ur thoughts,
Feeling the warmth of ur smile,
Then i know everything will be nice.

A mid day that hears ur concern and care,
As i have u in my mind the while day,
With unspoken words that i cannot say,
Awaitng ur heart i will surely bear.

An evening of a work,
Yet awaiting ur text or call,
As we wait for the sky to be dark,
I cant wait to present u my all.

A night that begins with dreaming,
The touch,care&kisses that im missing,
A sense of longing and ache that im feeling,
As my eyes shut,i pray as it bolster my hoping,
That tomorrow the joy of love will begin.

All in all its a good day for me,
Simply because your in it.

Have a good day syng.. Im missing u.. As im urs..always..
Syed Sherezal Shahabudin.

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