Monday, January 23, 2012

Ombak Rindu

(due to some advise to be more sensitive and avoid hurting people feelings and in the spirit of learning and betterment of yours truly, i revamp the blog.)

Last night i was out with the boyz, it seemed some time since i actually went out with the boys and we discussed about a great deal of stuff until movies came to play. Some one mentioned Ombak Rindu and although hecked by the rest i stood firm and argued about the most endering love story to date (by a malay movie)

Apart from the music soundtrack and the great cinematography, the movie stands out as the lessons to be learned from it. A girl, sold by her uncle to a brothel then sold yet again to a man to be used as a sex slave, defied all odds, and slowly changed the man from a monster to a caring human being. Such is the great power of love. the old school thought of thinking in caring and perseverance is something to be much respected.

Stories from my mom and dad, tell me of days when woman were a much demure creature, and man was far more harsh than they are today, but still the roles of man and woman as written in the Holy book is maintained and carried out till they pass away. For often as it is not that we the new generation forget this teaching of the old and yet lulubye by the modern age where choice is abundance and pride is king. For some of us that moan and whine of imperfect partners or cry to the gods about how unhappy they are and demand that God give them their jodoh as it is promised by God but they tend to forget that at times, the jodoh has already arrived in front of them, there is no such time as now as there is nver a gurantee of tomorrow, We have what god grants us and we work hard at it to make the best of it. Same for relationships and friendship. A friend of mine, was always saying that he could never be good enough but he tends to forget that sometimes learning and progressing is the only way to achieve greatness, so i told him that if she does not see it that it is her loss.

Choices in life are what we make of them and many a times, if we take the wrong turn it is the right thing to do to admit and learn from it. Rather than running, this many months i encountered some that rather than fight, would run and disappear, some on work and some on personal matters, some say that they are pretenders but in reality they lie and cheat to gain thier own personal satisfaction, some write in blogs, of finding some one that understands and accepts them as they are but yet have affairs with fashion designer and run back to their ex's when it suits them, some claim that they have found stability and love but yet get their priorities wrong. It is not my place to say what is right or wrong because i myself, since my rebirth in 2009, is on a path of learning, there were pitfalls and wrong turns but since WCA, i have been lucky to be in this calming breeze and as i fumble my way towards the path, i pray nightly that she would have the patience to love and accept me as i am for i know what a screwball i am.. hahahahha anyhows, its is not my place to say.. all i do in my blogs is to tell the world of how it looks from my eyes... thru my eyes.. i will be the first to admit in my wrongness and as i always told my late father, "i may not be perfect but there is no harm in trying to be"

Times, i get confuse with the thing i want and the thing i need, and times i expect people to treat me as how i treat them but i tend to forget that no two peas are the same, "similar but yet different" the only advise that i give to my brothers and sisters in everything, let it be love, work or family is that we must fight, there is no other way, fight to show them that they are loved, that they mean something, everything is a two way street, in dark times, when demons come and feed u dark thoughts, serve u doubts and says "its too much hassle, just leave her" for that is the time that u recall all the good things, the happy memory the warm touch the joy of laughter, the private joke that only two of u know. Do not let other persuade u, only you know of what you want and of what you need. In life, we are judged by our actions, driving a mad 480KM, the sweetness of buying a watch for the daughter, the effort of cooking fried rice before a paintball game, taking time to put petals of roses or planning a surprise, these are our actions, and they speak louder that words. and it is this that i hope i will be remembered when it is time for me to go to be with my brothers. Lastly is faith, faith that what we do is something god puts his blessing on and faith that we reap what we sow. I am glad and grateful for finding her and every night in my prayers i thank god for it but it doesnt mean its a sure thing, its still means a struggle and it is a two way street. For the rest of you, remember that it is better to have what you need than have what you want, for in the end, not our riches, our beauty or time on the silver screen, our awesomness on the paintball field but rather our actions, our kindness will be the tag that we will be remember by, our friends and family that stand to attest to our life and that is all that we can ever hope for.

Ombak rindu showed us that in order true love to be achived, sacrifices need to be made, one needs to remember and value the other's deeds rather than judging the faults. even the now famous song says it all, is only do we only hear the song but never listening to the lyrics, for then we lose as life lessons are every where.
PEACE

p'S: no pictures la this time... sorry.
P'S 1: the blog is not intended to hurt or directed to anyone, rather its just my personal thoughts and personal observations of myself. Thanks.
  

Monday, January 2, 2012

Twenty Twelve

A trip to the zoo

In the snow

My little eskimo




Yeah yeah i am delyaed by 1 day... hahahahah Happy new year folks. Much has happen in 2011, it was a great year. depressed, disappointment, victory, pride and accomplishment.

As the world celebrates and awaits the predicted doomsday, we go on with life and faces the challenges that comes with it. Reading blogs and FB, i can see that new year is the one day that humans are reflective, optimistic and cheerful. For me the year begins with the missing of my brothers, untill now they are constantly in my mind and how i miss them. Its mom's bday on the 1st and usually we would call and surprise mom. this year with the launch of 1NPS, i celebrated mom;s bday at home as my daughter is going standard 1.

My greatest Accomplishment 
How fast times flies, its was only but yesterday that i cradle her bald head and now she is all grown up. Her brother is getting smarter but in all with my time in work and travelling, i find my self constantly missing them. They are those that says i love to travel but in reality, i am a simple man. i rather stay home, play with the kids and after they sleep, fiddle with the PC or read a book. so how boring is that to some?

Going to ICITY
Standard one already
As for the matters of the heart, i worry about not being the right person, with my commitments and responsibilities, it takes a special person to be able to adapt and understand my life. A life that is a candle and thus burn as one. i truly hope that she understands and weather the time and things that will come. My affections,  care and tenderness does not fade but it grows and im the person that is not shy to display my emotions although rather i get quiet but for some burst of emotions. for i beleive that in everything, it is a two way street, both have to work but sadly in my case, im  divivded between my family, work and my boyz.

The Lost Boyz is growing and the paintball team is destined for great things come 2012, it wont be easy and in terms of the team, sacrifices must be made to excel and be the best of the best and i know that we can be the best of the best and top the whole league.

Field walk at 1NPS
In all restrospec, i just feel tired at times, tired of being the candle, always the one people depend on always the one to troubleshoot, the one that motivates and fire up others. still some i tried but they never see, they gave up hope and for one thing i have always hold on to the lesson of the Lost Boyz, never, NEVER and NEVER giveup hope. fight to very last breath. Happy fighting for 2012 ...look over your shoulder and im just there fighting with you. PEACE folks.