Its has been a while since i posted my blog, espicially of things that we dont want to listen. This past month has been a roller coster ride for me,in terms of the matter of the heart. In the end as Linkin Park said...
As relationship grows, we try and find things and grow together. But yet at times,not matter how hard we try it will still hit problems, we compare of past relationships,wanting the same kind of treatment. Scarificies are what makes things work. In the journey, we try to adapt, for some we pray that she will change, shower her love and care, but yet it does not happen and we are left waiting.
Times, we are constantly convincing her that we are worth it, pushing to make the relationship work. The relationship grows but times its kind of loop sided. We have to always need to consider the feelings of others, maybe our best friends will standby us but they too will soon find their own path and will go in search of love as well, what of us then?
We always try to find the perfect match for us and most times oppsite attracts, want someone who can accept our flaws not merely love us for the god. True love happens went we accept the flaws of our partners, to put them above us, its hard to understand but its true, our ang,ego,fears and doubts. To be able to call her and just talk about our fears, to hear the words "dont worry everything will be alright" or " do your best, i know you can do it, worry not i will be here,wheater you win or lose"
When we care and ask about what she is doing or she ask you what you are doing, we take it the wrong way and things they are trying to control but in actual fact, they are trying to share so they will be things to talk about. But yet its must be both way, for if not the than the other party will feel negelated, dpressed and will eventualy probelem will arise.
Butthru it all, i do not regret even one day because i learned from it, i cherised it and i value it. At times as a singer once sang "kita hanya mampu merancang namun hanya tuhan yang tentukan" as everything else in life, if we dont work for it than it will never happen, a great singer or actor will not shine if no work is out in refining their art and skills. Same with relationship, mistakes will happen and there will be tears among the joy for that is life, so take a hold of what you have, value them, better to grow what you have than dream for things that will never come. God works in mysterious ways, sometimes he makes it hard so that we are able to learn and see the mistakes, be a better person and in turn be kind to others. Love what you have, for if it walks than it would be too late. Take it for a man who has lost much in hus life but yet i try and everyday i wake up, i pray for a better day than yesterday.
Peace.
